花的試驗#4 - yihsuan yeh

 

Fleur Olby

 

Tu me regardes - Angèle

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s9LTuz8IHLY

死亡 是一種說法

 

Sometimes he speaks of overcoming death. The word overcome is one of the words poetry needs. To overcome means to outdo [dépasser], but to outdo what outdoes us by undergoing it, without turning away from it or aiming at anything beyond. Perhaps it is in this sense that Nietzsche intends Zarathustra's formula: "Man is something that must be overcome." It is not that man must attain something beyond man; he has nothing to attain, and if he is what exceeds him, this excess is not anything he can possess, or be. To overcome, then, is also very different from to master. One of the errors of voluntary death lies in the desire to be master of one's end and to impose one's form and limit even upon this last movement. Such is the challenge of Igitur: to assign a limit to chance, to die centered within oneself in the transparency of an event which one has made equal to oneself, which one has annihilated and by which, thus, one can be annihilated without violence. Suicide remains linked to this wish to die by doing without death [en se passant de la mort].

 

 

                                                       -   Maurice Blanchot, The space of literature

the fatal promise of a future song - Michel Foucault

The law averts its face and returns to the shadows the instant one looks at it; when one tries to hear its words, what one catches is a song that is no more than the fatal promise of a future song.

 

                        Michel Foucault, “Maurice Blanchot : The Thought from Outside” 

小帥 的傷

 

小帥受傷  右後腳瘸著  依舊堅持  早上要坐車車  到草地  廣闊的地方  曬清晨的陽光

 

看牠抬著腳  穿過忠義國小的欄杆  抬著腳  走  停  回望我  笑 

我的擔憂  更深

 

是舊傷  2015年被機車撞 髖關骨脫臼  肝臟破裂  住院3個多月

這些天  Hachi跟我睡一起  我一翻身  壓到牠的右後腳  舊傷復發

 

看了2天醫生 吃止痛藥 1/天    Q10  3/天  過敏的藥 2/天

不斷失敗的減肥計畫

讓藥物的進食  加劇

我抱著牠下樓  24.9公斤  再上樓 不肯讓我抱的帥小狗  一陣混亂  我拉傷了右大腿  而左腳踝的傷  還在

 

 

這  運動傷害  讓我倆忙和著  忙和著 

我懂 我們彼此的依賴  和照顧 

減重   漸進  必要具體實現

 

 

Sur la lune - Bigflo & Oli

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wv7yHnwQMPc

The Hound of Heaven - Francis Thompson

I fled Him, down the nights and down the days;

I fled Him, down the arches of the years;

I fled Him, down the labyrinthine ways

Of my own mind; and in the mist of tears

I hid from Him, and under running laughter.

 

…….

 

'Ah, fondest, blindest, weakest,

I am He Whom thou seekest!

Thou dravest love from thee, who dravest Me.'

未知的斷點

 「向死而生」(memento mori，拉丁文直接意譯為「記著人之必死」)

我想的是 「向生而死」，會有一個斷點，在那，

在那，一個未知的斷點，撐得住現在當下的寂寥，撐得住無法掙脫的謊言和不斷滲入的abjection，

撐得住在生命裡消失的人的莫名，是嗎 ?

等 那一個 未知的斷點  我